Visiting Gau Sheng

Last fri afternoon Rachel and I flew over to KL with Mr Ng, Gau Sheng's father, and stayed one night there before going over to Taiping to call on Gau Sheng's grave.

In this trip, I begin to really grasp that funerals aren't really for the dead, its more for the living who are left behind. The feelings, the emotions, the rituals, the words, the missing, all belong to the living and the living alone. To help them cope with the loss, the hurt, the loneliness, the pain, and to facilitate the process of letting go

Afterall, we come into the world with nothing and we leave the world with nothing. One thing that I take comfort in is that Gau Sheng is in heaven with Jesus now, cos he was a believer in our Lord when he was alive on earth.

Looking back, I remember hearing comments that its such a pity that he died so young, that its not fair to him cos he is a good boy. Many of such comments are based on our understanding of the world. The feelings of unfairness and pity are, but only based on the limited understanding that death brings an end to everything. Though, not everything, death does bring an end to many things; our contact with them, our life with the deceased.

The great thing is that death has also brought an end to many bad things, an end to suffering, injustice, sadness, pain, sorrow, bad experiences. Because with death, comes a new life where there is no more pain and no more sorrow, as promised in the Bible. Can you imagine, Gau Sheng playing soccer in the fields of heaven and in the streets of gold. I can only imagine how great things can be like in Heaven, but he is already there ahead of me, enjoying his new home, his new "life" and his new beginning, busking in the Glory.

He is truly home now.

Chinese New Year

We're approaching the end of Chinese New Year now.

I decided that my sister and I are too old for Chinese New Year and so I bought my family members tickets to Genting so that we can miss the first day of CNY and make it back in time to visit my grandma on the second day of new year.

The idea is for us to miss CNy altogether but in the end, I still maanged to get quite a sum of red packets. In fact, slightly more than last year. Well, one good thing about this year is that my uncle invited my parents over to his place. This was a pleasant surprise as they haven't spoken in years!

There was a big quarrel in my family and this uncle of mine hasn't spoken or contacted us, and my 2nd auntie, ever since the death of my grandfather. I visited him once after my grandfather died and that was it. A few months ago, my cousin, his son, got into a very serious accident and was hospitalized. We got news of it from my 1st auntie and we went to visit him. That really broke the ice that was built up over the years. I was really glad, we're family after all.